Deelylah Mullin Author

Emotional Songs

· The one where I give away all the songs that make me have feels. ·

March 15, 2017 4 Comments

Musical Musings is a monthly feature that gives us an opportunity to share our love of music. It's a thing. Really.

I’m a music whore. Ask anyone. I suppose it goes back to my college days–the first time. My writing all has a soundtrack, at least in my head. I suppose I should get better about putting playlists together, huh?

Here’s the first one: “Never Stop” by SafetySuit. HERE is the video and HERE are the lyrics. If you decide you’re in love with it, be sure you listen to the wedding version. I haven’t found it in anything but live videos yet, but I’m on the lookout. If you manage to find a studio version I can buy, link me.

This song gives me ALL the feels. It makes me think about Mr. VampBard, and it’s actually his ringtone on my phone. If you read through the lyrics, it’s all about being in love–that passionate, never-gonna-give-you-up love. New love–and not wanting it to get old and stale. Because, let’s face it. We get used to the people that are significant in our lives and they become part of the decor. They blend in seamlessly to our lives and we don’t stop to appreciate them like we should. We take them for granted.

So, if you’re fortunate to have someone in your life that makes you better–like Mr. VampBard makes me–tell them. Every. Fucking. Day. Tell them you love and appreciate them. Do something selfless for them. Not making dinner or doing the laundry–something they will appreciate. This song makes me remember to focus on the wonderful relationship I have with my hubby–and I cry happy tears.

“Leader of the Band” makes me sad. Like, a fucking blubbering idiot a lot of the time. Artists–no matter their medium–are emotional beings. We connect with something and identify it with nouns–people, places, and things. I identify everything with songs. So, if you look at the lyrics HERE and the video HERE (which also has lyrics, because this song is old-school and they didn’t make music videos back-in-the-day), this song is actually entirely depressing. And…I don’t think it’s really about a band leader.

See, my first degree was in music. I taught band for 14 years. I used to think the song affected me so much because I wanted someone to remember me like the narrator does in the song. But that’s not it. The most important teacher in my life was my band director. Most writerly people say it was an English teacher that fostered their love of writing. Nope. Not here.

I went to college the first time because he believed in me. Not that other adults in my life didn’t–I was, after all, a teenager once, and my parents knew nothing. 🙂 I like to think he fostered my tenacity and my drive. Music teachers put in a lot of extra hours, sacrificing time with their families. When he retired, I was a Sad Panda because I wanted my own kids to have the honor of having such a remarkable man as part of their lives. Selfish, right? Still, I associate this song with that innocent me who had serious self-esteem issues and didn’t believe in herself nor her skills. I’m glad someone was around to see the potential and urge me to follow a dream…someone I’d listen to.

Mozart’s Requiem is my favorite piece of classical music. I can still sing all the alto parts in Latin. The entire piece is HERE, and if you really want to check out Latin lyrics, they’re HERE. And, because the GoogleFu is strong today, HERE‘s a side-by-side Latin/English translation. My favorite movement is the Lacrimosa”. It’s my reset, I think. When Evanescence came out with their “Lacrymosa”  (video has lyrics) on the album The Open Door–which sampled Mozart’s melody and mimicked the key and rhythm–I felt like the cosmos was listening or something. 

When I get angry beyond the point where I can talk, I crank Evanescence. But, it’s the song that connects parts of me that’s going to settle my nerves and drain away the pissed-off attitude. I went through a phase where everything I listened to was similar–lots of Evanescence, Linkin Park, Korn, Seether, Paramore, Green Day, Nickelback…it was all harsh and felt real when nothing else in my life felt tangible. So, in reality, Mozart’s Requiem is rather empowering. Even though it comes from a place steeped in toxicity.

I can seriously go on for hours about music. How it makes me feel, what it means to me, and highlight all the nouns I associate with different songs. I won’t, though!

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    March 15, 2017

    I’ve never heard Never Stop – or Safetysuit, for that matter. I’ll have to check it. out!

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      March 17, 2017

      It’s the one song that makes me remember–no matter what–why I love my hubby 😉 Definitely worth a listen if you’re into rock ballads.

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    Jess Jarman

    March 15, 2017

    I’m not familiar with most of these songs (except Mozart’s Requiem, thanks to my music major daughter), so I’ve some listening to do. 🙂

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      March 17, 2017

      The Requiem is my absolute fave piece by Mozart. I can still sing the entire alto part. And…it’s been a minute since college 😉